Why does it have to be such a struggle?

Why does my battle with food have to be such a struggle? I do so good sometimes, and then others, it just goes out the window.

I have a few friends that don't struggle with it and then I have friends who do, so I know I'm not the only one that can struggle with it.

I wish I could hate it....I wish I wouldn't let social settings run my attitude that it gives me a good excuse to eat.

I've been paying Weight Watchers to help me lose this weight, but here lately it seems I've been forking over the money for nothing.

When I was in high school, I didn't really have to worry about what I ate...I was active in sports, I had 3 horses to ride, and a very physical job, so it wasn't an issue.

Now my body has changed so much and it gets harder and harder the older I get. I'm turning into a new decade in a month, no I'm not looking forward to it, but its awakening a new sense of I'm getting older and weight loss isn't getting any easier.

You would think being a stay at home mom, I would have all the time in the world to work out and take care of myself. I don't. I guess maybe its just time for me to step up and say I need time for myself, but then that does seem selfish when there are other people needing me.

So for now...I just struggle. and then I don't. and then I do.

Starbucks...Walmart....No More

So Sunday morning, I missed church because my little girl was sick again. She's feeling better and has been to school both days this week. It just must be some nasty stuff going around, and with her being in school, she's more likely to get it.

Anyways, hubby comes home from church Sunday Morning and informs me I'm no longer able to patronize Starbucks. Why, I ask? I guess Starbucks has been putting some Anti-God slogans on their cups. Why....I ask myself...do they have to do this? I quite frequently visited the drive-thru, and I myself had never read one of these "opinions". It must be serious, when my Pastor will even say something in front of the whole congregation. I wonder how many other church members felt violated and convicted by this. What an insult to us Christians.

So, I love coffee....so now what do I do....I'm gonna go buy an espresso machine and make my own coffee, and guess what.....I won't be buying it at Walmart either.

What's up Walmart?? Sam Walton would be rolling in his grave for how far gone your company is.

Why do I have to walk down the beer aisle...JUST TO GET POPCORN! And you know what else, I'm sick of your rude-non-caring-I don't care if you have help or not-associates.

What happened to CUSTOMER SERVICE? It is so far gone, it's non-exisistent in 95% of business frequented.

My goal is to limit Walmart, Walmart was built for my kind of people, but no longer, even Walmart is changing with the times.

I will be getting my groceries at Hyvee, who have seperated their alcohol from the main building, and they have great customer service, and are very helpful. My fabric will be coming from Hobby Lobby (oh, by the way, who still closes on Sundays so their employess may enjoy their day of worship and with their families), or Joann's. Everything else, I will pick up as needed where I can get it.

I know I'm not the only one who feels this way. I hope everyone else will see what these places are doing to families and Christians. We are being disposed of and mocked.

Advice?? Or Not So Much

SO, I'm just really irritated with some stuff right now.

I am so tired of being called for advice. Really....if you want advice, then take it. I'm really not as dumb as I look.

So next time, you call me for advice, please do me a favor, take it.....and then...Don't call me back asking for the same advice on the same subject, and expect me to be chipper about repeating myself. My opinion didn't change.

Then don't get mad when I'm in a bad mood. I'm tired of everyone expecting me to be the chipper one. I have bad days too.

Don't take this personal, it's not directed at anyone specifically. It's just been some things that have been building and building for a very long time now.

Instead of venting at the refrigerator....I'm venting on my blog. =)

I really do love you all!