Why does my battle with food have to be such a struggle? I do so good sometimes, and then others, it just goes out the window.
I have a few friends that don't struggle with it and then I have friends who do, so I know I'm not the only one that can struggle with it.
I wish I could hate it....I wish I wouldn't let social settings run my attitude that it gives me a good excuse to eat.
I've been paying Weight Watchers to help me lose this weight, but here lately it seems I've been forking over the money for nothing.
When I was in high school, I didn't really have to worry about what I ate...I was active in sports, I had 3 horses to ride, and a very physical job, so it wasn't an issue.
Now my body has changed so much and it gets harder and harder the older I get. I'm turning into a new decade in a month, no I'm not looking forward to it, but its awakening a new sense of I'm getting older and weight loss isn't getting any easier.
You would think being a stay at home mom, I would have all the time in the world to work out and take care of myself. I don't. I guess maybe its just time for me to step up and say I need time for myself, but then that does seem selfish when there are other people needing me.
So for now...I just struggle. and then I don't. and then I do.